Sunday, March 20, 2005 @ Sunday, March 20, 2005
This Vulnerable Heart
Beneath that smile, beneath those cheerfulness and beneath the happiness that could be seen on her face, somehow deep down, she's still bearing the pain. She's bearing the pain that ripped off her heart into million pieces, bearing with the pain that she will never be loved again. Though things have been going fine for her, though her smile is genuine again, her heart overtook her mind. People say she's being too nice, people say she needs to be firm. It's not that she doesn't want to, it's just that she couldn't bear to. Blame her on anything. Blame her on everything. But one thing's for sure, blame it on this vulnerable heart of hers. 5 days has passed. One week holidays is/are coming. Exams is/are one week after that. Boy, time passes by too quickly and too many things happened in a very short while. Next thing I know, my IHP will be starting soon. Damn, everything seems so rushy. So rushy that I can't even think straight. Urgh!
I'm definitely going to miss everyone when year 3 approaches. I'm going to miss all the fun I had with all my psychotic friends. I'm going to miss my brothers and sisters who took care of me. I'm going to miss EVERYTHING.
I'm just hoping that everyone will be happy with their life. Making new and right decisions, able to solve their problems wisely, live life to the fullest, seize the day! I'm saying this because I'm trying to achieve this myself and NOT, making this whole entry sound like a suicide letter. =)
Anyways, hope that everyone will do well in their exams and achieve whatever they want to do after exams. Cheers!
It takes a lot of courage to pretend to be happy when you're not...
