Sunday, March 26, 2006 @ Sunday, March 26, 2006
I need you already
It's those one awkward days yesterday. Neither the both of us talked much to each other. He was less psychotic and I was less noisy. It just happened. It's not that we had an argument or a misunderstanding but we just didn't talk to each other. Could it be me and my PMS? Or something might be bothering him? I don't know cos' I'm afraid to ask and that has always been my case; I'm AFRAID to ask.
From what I notice, it's always when I'm quiet, that he'll be quiet too. Could it be me affecting his mood as well? For I don't know umpteen times I told him I was all right, it still worried him sick. I just don't feel like talking... That's all.
At the same time I think... Maybe this whole thing with 'us' shouldn't have happened at all. God knows where it's going to lead us in future since he's going back to school and I'll probably be working and for that fact, worries me. What if he met someone younger and better than me? What if he met someone that fit his criterias of 'The One'? What if...? It has always been bothering but I've been keeping mum about it to both Nora and him.
I really hate the feeling of seeing him talking to other girls even though I know they're his friends. I really hate the feeling of seeing him walking out of the store with his bag and bids everyone goodbye. I really hate the feeling of him not being there. I REALLY REALLY hate that feeling.
This is bad for me. Cos' I'm really falling for him.
It's taking a toll in me
