I did it. I finally did it. I finally told him everything. I finally told him the truth. It wasn't as awkward as I imagined it and it didn't end as what I predicted.

Instead of being an ass and avoid me like a plague just like my fantasy, he was being so sweet and apologised to me for hurting me unintentionally. We pretty much talked things out and it turned out good. I'm just so glad that he understood and that's all that matters. In the end, I'm just so darn proud of myself.

But don't get too anxious folks. Nothing is happening right now. Me and Musa are just friends and we're there to encourage one another. I intend to keep it that way. Impossible as it seems, no matter how adorable and cute he is, the feeling is just not right, you know?

Come to think of it, there's something amiss about this whole thing. Cos' right after we talked it out, he was simply in a daze. When I asked him why he was so quiet, he said "Nothing. I'm just thinking about the whole incident." Was there something that he should let me know? I have no idea and I don't want to ask him too.

...and thank you so much to someone for making me panic for no freaking reason. I really thought he went to NS but then he was in school doing his normal stuffs. Idiot.

But I admit, I do miss him nowadays and I will miss him if he ever goes to camp in order to have what it takes to be a man. Just the thought of it actually brings tears to my eyes. Cos' I definitely won't be seeing him much. Having someone important in your life away for 2 years is definitely not a great feeling and god knows what will happen right after that 2 years. Will he still remember me? Will we ever be as close as before? I'll just leave it to fate.

You're everything to me..