Saturday, November 03, 2007 @ Saturday, November 03, 2007
What CPF has done to me
I lost some weight.
My feet is killing me 24/7.
Oh, and I made some enemies without knowing it!
Should I leave?
Should I stay?
Dilemma much.
Bummer. Sighs.
Monday, October 29, 2007 @ Monday, October 29, 2007
What a "productive" day.
I didn't budge. I didn't make any move. I just lay on my bed and stare at the ceiling. That was what I did for 18 hours at home.
Brain dead you may call it. But I just feel like resting even though it gave me a terrible headache! So many things went through my mind. So many things to think about.
Work. Family. LIFE.
I'm appreaciative of getting a job at CPF. I'm fine with the workload. But somehow I don't like the idea of doing everything alone; by myself. I wonder why they hire new temp staffs when I'm doing most of the work? They're definitely not making the situation any better.
And I know that I'm the kind of person who's so ultimately lazy to change jobs. But it's only been 3 weeks and I already feel like leaving. How bad is this?
Back at home,I'm worried about my folks. They're not getting any younger and are dependent on me. Sometimes I wonder why my folks didn't want any more kids cos' I find it's a burden for me. What if I can't grant their wishes? What if I never suceed? I wish so badly to make them happy but somehow I'm afraid I can't.
Maybe I didn't try hard enough.
So give me time. Give me some space.
