I have no words to define the state that I'm in right now. It's all messed up. I don't know what I'm supposed to do nor do I know what I'm doing. It all comes down to; ME.

The boyfriend said I've been so sensitive lately. So sensitive that it seems he can't even stand it. The slightest thing he says, I'll get offended easily and I'll just look away from him. He said it as though I've never had sensitivity before.

And then recently, he had to talk about looking for jobs.

What's wrong with looking for jobs through agents, really? They have better connections with companies, I find that they can get a job faster for you since they know what kind of job you're looking for. Of course they'll take a certain amount $$ from all of this but it's not like they're taking it forever.

You think I'm not aware of it? You think I never thought about it before? It's been 7 months since my last actual job and not one single company call and you think I don't get upset after those things you said to me? I'm trying to look for a job and seizing every opportunity I can to get it! You can say I'm desperate for all I care.

Bottom line, I'm sorry if I've been too sensitive that it gets on your nerves lately cos' I always have been. I'm a girl, I should be sensitive. I'm sorry if I didn't brighten up your day. I'm sorry for being me. I'm sorry if I can't help it.